Why am I here? (a poem written by Efxaris Arampatzi)

(Trigger Warning! A horror poem about trying to find meaning in your life with the result of su!c!d3. I was inspired to write this after I read two stories of a friend of mine on WritersCafe, Twilight, and the character that is talking in this poem is John, nothing in this poem applies to me!)

Am I just a shadow in my corner?
Another pointless breath?
Does it even really matter,
If I was born of science or in nature’s depth?

A thought passes through my head
Before sleep I ask the pillow on my bed
Longing for an answer to hear
Why am I here?

Will I be the star of the family?
Will I stay the monster John?
He who people love to make fun of for infinity
Laughing at him endlessly on?

Too many questions forming
My heart begins racing
Am I the one going insane
Or does the world wish to keep me chained?

As my breath falters, the voices in my head, I ask them
Did the world break me, or my desire to be a gem?
Silence for a while, then with a trembling hand, I release the fight,
And fade into silence, swallowed by night.

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